Another One Bites It

Last visit with PDoc had me optimistic.... He was started me on Celexa as an antidepressant med to go along with the Lamictal stabilizer. I was anticipating a mood elevation, so that I wasn't just stable, like I have been, but stable in a happier place.

After 3 weeks, I can report that I will no longer be doing the Celexa thing... (Beyond the sexual side effects I seem to be suffering- a complete lack of want to), I have started itching. Trying to tear the hide from my fucking legs and feet is not my idea of being happier. In fact, it tends to make me more pissed off. Ever get that itch really deep in your foot that you can't reach? How about the one in near your ankle that seems to move every time you go to scratch it? And you gotta love those ones that feel like something is stabbing you with an ice pick quite suddenly... Well, that's my new predicament, and it fucking sucks.

So we get to scratch another med off the list of shit I can or want to take. The list thus far has been... Prozac, Paxil, Zoloft, Wellbutrin, Effexor, Depakote, Topamax, and now Celexa (I am sure there are some in there that I missed...). The only thing I do take that seems to have a good effect is the Lamictal, so we can stick with that.

For those that are curious, I am not "typical" bi-polar I or II, I have been diagnosed as having Cyclothymic Disorder.... I don't go as high or as low as typical Bipolar, and my swings last only a short time. Sometimes they cycle in a matter of a day or two... that can be problematic when I swing up and rage for a few hours at those around me, then break into a 2 day crying jag.

I will be spending a few hours this week looking at a rainbow of fruit flavors that I can talk to PDoc about when I go in on the 24th... any one have some suggestions? Lithium is out (my ass is big enough), as are any MAOIs (not into the zombie thing). I know my bipolar buds out there have been through some shit too, and I would love any ideas you have.