Sorry

I have to apologize to everyone this week. Everyone I have come in to contact with. It has been a really shitty week of stress and emotional upheaval, and it has taken it's toll on my attitude. Sick cats, anniversaries, birthdays of dead friends, military career stress, kids being stuck in the house all day from rain... My head would fly apart were it not for gravity pressing in on it, and holding it together.

The days have been long, and the nights even longer. I have had little desire to do much of anything, so the only thing I have accomplished is the "have to " shit like floor cleaning and dish washing. Even with a fuck-ton of sewing to get started- something I usually find a welcome distraction from the hum drum- I have had a very hard time getting up and moving on it. The sewing serves a dual function, as not only does it give me something to do- but makes me money starting September when people go looking for costumes for Halloween, and it inevitably leads them to eBay.

I have two choices. I can sit in this pit and rot, or I can forklift my ass out of it. As was said in a great song, "If you wanna be somebody else, change your mind." No it won't be easy... but now that everything has either somewhat resolved or hit a long term state of stasis, it is just a matter of forcing myself to stop sweating the little shit, and concentrate on being a little better.

I do have to extend a special hug to Driver- having a place to vent, talk, and laugh helped bring shit into a better perspective. She is one of 3 women in the world who gets me... That's special and rare; to understand a fucking crazy person and know it's okay to be crazy.

In any case, if I have seemed not myself as of late- I apologize... (Except to the zealot asshole who I comment bombed on his blog- you are still an asshole... So is that peckerhead who uses his blog to regurgitate republican rhetoric he heard on Fox News, has no original thought in his brain, and posts constantly about the "lies" of global waring. You're an asshole too. )

And hey! I just listened to my voicemail, and things are looking up already... I have been selected to appear on a New Las Vegas game show! Woo Hoo! I wonder if they will fly us out from Germany to play? Vonage is great, ain't it?